[Shach]

Worse and worse. The thoughts are inside out. A realizing of all sides of situation is hopeless. I don't wanna walk, speak, sleep, play games, drink alcohol, even smoke. Being alone I feel a necessary way with hard working and physical activities. Diets, a little bit of expensive alcohol in the evening.
Fuck your lovers. There is no destiny, only awful coincidences which always try to become illusions and often they do it. And we believe, so trustful pity sincere beings.
I did all my best to kill myself as my mental myself. But i cant. It's my dramatic vital failure. It's yours.

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[perfectyou]

4 a long time i was thinkin 'bout ur post.and finally,
-apathy is treatable - by brand new books and people.
-maybe all ur best is too much.i mean when a drama gets worse n worse,
it became drama nomore..
whatever,u have to change smth.it helps.at least,for the first time.

[Shach]

I have changed a lot: appearance, style, surrounding, even habits, music, books, usual spots. I think it's not time to realise the whole situation by myself. my subconsciousness plays with me at night - so, i don't know how to control it.